A Glimmer of Light

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A Glimmer of Light

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Have to share this with you.

I was meditating this morning, when it suddenly dawned on me - nothing is permanent.

Sure I'd heard the 'phrase' with my hearing, and it had settled there in my mind, and I knew what they were talking about in general, but this morning, it hit me. 'Nothing' is permanent. Pain, steel, suns, relationships, fear, love, laughter, anger - none of this lasts - not even this typing :) The phrase 'Annica' suddenly came to life and I understood deeply, on another level what it was telling me.

So from that, came the natural progressin to the realisation 'so why get attached to this life/car/relationship/fear/love/anger?

Which in turn had a knock on effect: So live life to the full.

And through meditation, and vipassana (in particular?), we learn to do this - to live this life to the full. To expereince and appreciate every second/moment like it's your last. Because for definite, at some point, it will be.

It's like the door of understanding just became unlocked, now I have to keep looking beyond it.

I know this seems very obvious to some of you, but for me it really was a bit of insight. It was like I had this jigsaw puzzle lying at my feet, I even had the box cover showing me the completed picture - but I hadn't put the pieces together myself until this morning. Something clicked.

What do you think?
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Collective wrote:Have to share this with you.

I was meditating this morning, when it suddenly dawned on me - nothing is permanent.

Sure I'd heard the 'phrase' with my hearing, and it had settled there in my mind, and I knew what they were talking about in general, but this morning, it hit me. 'Nothing' is permanent. Pain, steel, suns, relationships, fear, love, laughter, anger - none of this lasts - not even this typing :) The phrase 'Annica' suddenly came to life and I understood deeply, on another level what it was telling me.

So from that, came the natural progressin to the realisation 'so why get attached to this life/car/relationship/fear/love/anger?

Which in turn had a knock on effect: So live life to the full.

And through meditation, and vipassana (in particular?), we learn to do this - to live this life to the full. To expereince and appreciate every second/moment like it's your last. Because for definite, at some point, it will be.

It's like the door of understanding just became unlocked, now I have to keep looking beyond it.

I know this seems very obvious to some of you, but for me it really was a bit of insight. It was like I had this jigsaw puzzle lying at my feet, I even had the box cover showing me the completed picture - but I hadn't put the pieces together myself until this morning. Something clicked.

What do you think?

Good click !

Often, people think that how they feel now is how they will always feel and how they always felt. When they want something they completely forget that they had not even heard about it a year ago or it will be uncool next year. To know that how I am now will change, I will be different next year, have different ideals, intentions, motives, wishes - because last year I had different ideals, intentions, motives, wishes.... yes, that is really, truly important. How I am now - it will never the same again. What else is there but enjoying it. :D
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Well done, Collective! I hope it gives you inspiration and confidence to keep going!
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Oh it felt good. But you know what? Later through the day, I started losing this 'insight', this relisation. The more I tried to remember exactly how I felt, the more insubstantial it became. I've almost reverted back to the point I was before meditating this morning. But that's not so bad because now I know this meditation thing works, and that it can bring little insights now and then. I just have to keep watching the breath and hope that one day, it all sticks.

Thanks all :)
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All things are anicca, including insights into anicca. Damnit, eh?
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Kenshou wrote:All things are anicca, including insights into anicca. Damnit, eh?

Wait up a sec. If all things are anicca... that would include space, time, consciousness, Buddha, Dharma and Nirvana. Are these all impermanent?
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Collective wrote:Oh it felt good. But you know what? Later through the day, I started losing this 'insight', this relisation. The more I tried to remember exactly how I felt, the more insubstantial it became. I've almost reverted back to the point I was before meditating this morning. But that's not so bad because now I know this meditation thing works, and that it can bring little insights now and then. I just have to keep watching the breath and hope that one day, it all sticks.

Thanks all :)
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“No lists of things to be done. The day providential to itself. The hour. There is no later. This is later. All things of grace and beauty such that one holds them to one's heart have a common provenance in pain. Their birth in grief and ashes.”
- Cormac McCarthy, The Road

Learn this from the waters:
in mountain clefts and chasms,
loud gush the streamlets,
but great rivers flow silently.
- Sutta Nipata 3.725

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Collective wrote:Oh it felt good. But you know what? Later through the day, I started losing this 'insight', this relisation. The more I tried to remember exactly how I felt, the more insubstantial it became. I've almost reverted back to the point I was before meditating this morning. But that's not so bad because now I know this meditation thing works, and that it can bring little insights now and then. I just have to keep watching the breath and hope that one day, it all sticks.

Thanks all :)
Yes, these experiences tend to wear off. I heard several stories about monks who thought that they are enlightened because of the exalted mind-states, and then get really disappointed when they started to become grumpy, angry and frustrated again. :) Once, after abiding without the five senses of the body, I too thought that I am now permanently beyond all bodily suffering. I contemplated on the most "horrific" ways of death, and they just felt genuinely ridiculous... for one hour or two. These things can be very disappointing, if the ego sticks to them. :(

So it is good to be careful about these experiences. I like to keep them to just myself, and I think it is equally important not to make a big deal out of them even in our mind. The "rule of the thumb" attitude is: Just more things to let go of... :|

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catmoon wrote:
Kenshou wrote:All things are anicca, including insights into anicca. Damnit, eh?

Wait up a sec. If all things are anicca... that would include space, time, consciousness, Buddha, Dharma and Nirvana. Are these all impermanent?
the buddha said all conditioned things are impermanent, not self and suffering. nibbana is the unconditioned, all else is free game i'd suppose...
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Ben wrote:sabbe dhamma anicca!
All compound things are transient, also translated as All constituents of being are impermanent?
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baratgab wrote:
Collective wrote:Oh it felt good. But you know what? Later through the day, I started losing this 'insight', this relisation. The more I tried to remember exactly how I felt, the more insubstantial it became. I've almost reverted back to the point I was before meditating this morning. But that's not so bad because now I know this meditation thing works, and that it can bring little insights now and then. I just have to keep watching the breath and hope that one day, it all sticks.

Thanks all :)
Yes, these experiences tend to wear off. I heard several stories about monks who thought that they are enlightened because of the exalted mind-states, and then get really disappointed when they started to become grumpy, angry and frustrated again. :) Once, after abiding without the five senses of the body, I too thought that I am now permanently beyond all bodily suffering. I contemplated on the most "horrific" ways of death, and they just felt genuinely ridiculous... for one hour or two. These things can be very disappointing, if the ego sticks to them. :(

So it is good to be careful about these experiences. I like to keep them to just myself, and I think it is equally important not to make a big deal out of them even in our mind. The "rule of the thumb" attitude is: Just more things to let go of... :|

:anjali:
For sure. The more important lesson was the realisation that even insight (in this instance) was transient. But the fact I experienced anything at all gives me some inspiration for the future. It's a proof of sorts that we aren't wasting our time.
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Collective wrote:
Ben wrote:sabbe dhamma anicca!
All compound things are transient, also translated as All constituents of being are impermanent?
Hi Collective

Sabbe dhamma anicca (all phenomena are impermanent)
Phenomena: the mental and physical constituents of nama and rupa (mind and body).

It was in response to your earlier post remarking how your insight was fading. My comment was just to highlight that all phenomena, including your insight, are impermanent.
I think you're doing well. Keep going!!!
metta

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“No lists of things to be done. The day providential to itself. The hour. There is no later. This is later. All things of grace and beauty such that one holds them to one's heart have a common provenance in pain. Their birth in grief and ashes.”
- Cormac McCarthy, The Road

Learn this from the waters:
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loud gush the streamlets,
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Ben wrote:
Collective wrote:
Ben wrote:sabbe dhamma anicca!
All compound things are transient, also translated as All constituents of being are impermanent?
Hi Collective

Sabbe dhamma anicca (all phenomena are impermanent)
Phenomena: the mental and physical constituents of nama and rupa (mind and body).

It was in response to your earlier post remarking how your insight was fading. My comment was just to highlight that all phenomena, including your insight, are impermanent.
I think you're doing well. Keep going!!!
metta

Ben
Thanks Ben, I thought that's what you were saying :)

Only problem I have is, if these 'states of mind', these 'insights' are fleeting, how are we to gain any kind of long term benefits? Aren't we supposed to realise all this 'bad stuff' is wrong, and that it's all this 'right 'stuff' we should be trying to attain? It's difficult to explain because however I word it it seems like I'm grasping.

It's like, Nibbana cannot be attained because it's fleeting? You'll never get permanent insight because that is fleeting.
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Collective wrote:Only problem I have is, if these 'states of mind', these 'insights' are fleeting, how are we to gain any kind of long term benefits? Aren't we supposed to realise all this 'bad stuff' is wrong, and that it's all this 'right 'stuff' we should be trying to attain? It's difficult to explain because however I word it it seems like I'm grasping. It's like, Nibbana cannot be attained because it's fleeting? You'll never get permanent insight because that is fleeting.
This was not a reply to me, but I thought that maybe you could accept my answer too. :smile:

Basically, you would want to maintain and refine the state of mind that gives rise to these insights. This is where we can start to talk about precepts and sense-restraint, and this is where it becomes a little bit tricky to reconcile the "normal" lay life with the ideal development. If one aspires great insights and at the same wants to keep the habit of relaxing in pubs with the friends, going to dancing, cheering teams at football matches, watching television all day and so on, that probably won't work. Even the not-that-worldly activities can be rather harmful to the refined states, especially if we are just learning them.

To draw a parallel, consider morals. Being moral is not like doing two or three good acts, and then going to thieving, harassing and raping. :smile: Being moral is about maintaining a consistently moral conduct, excluding immoral conduct, during the everyday life. And if one is truly moral, there is not much difficulty in this; it is just a natural thing to do. The same is true about mindfulness and the meditation practice in general. One has to maintain a consistently meditative attitude that can serve as a strong base to the sitting meditation; this is mainly about paying attention to what we do, but it includes for some degree the full exclusion of grossly detrimental activities.

Regarding the attainment of nibbana... It seems logical to assume that a sort of critical mass can be reached in our inclinations, after which the mind so strongly inclines towards the goal that it can't be detached from it. Though, I don't really know, since I'm not quite there yet, I guess. :?
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Hi Collective
At this point, don't focus too heavily on Nibbana or attaining this or that insight. Certainly, they are good focal point as the proverbial light on the hill. The goal. The day-to-day work of maintaining our precepts, developing samadhi and panna, will improve the quality of your life. The cultivation of vipassana in meditative practice means that it directly erodes the mental defilements which are the active seeds of our continued suffering. And as our mind becomes slowly freed from their influence, our life is characterised by the slow eradication of craving, aversion and ignorance in its manifold variations and our blind habitual mental and behavioural patterns. Having said that, the cultivation of vipassana is dependent on both the maintenance of sila and samadhi. As one develops in one's progress and erodes those defilements, insights also develop. When those insights occur, we have to remember to also let them go.
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- Cormac McCarthy, The Road

Learn this from the waters:
in mountain clefts and chasms,
loud gush the streamlets,
but great rivers flow silently.
- Sutta Nipata 3.725

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