Maybe the reason or some of it, to getting nimitta that easy, is that I remind myself why I sit down (peace and stillness leads to freedom), and keep it as simple as possible. I dont care about nimittas and jhanas, I just "want" my freedom
, because I know that when stilness and peace comes together, they become pure joy in my mind, and the joy kicks in just a minute or so into meditation. And then I just hang on to the joy, and down we go into deeper states. there is nothing better than this peacefullness, and when I reach "beautiful breath", the stage is clear for whatever, but I still dont care about anything else then the hightened sense of freedom that springs out of sensing all of this stillness and joy.
Last time I had a nimitta, it came out of nowhere (as usual
). I was at the temple, and because it was overcrowded, I went for a sit down
in my car in the parking lot. sat there for nearly an hour, and it wasn't perfectly still, and I had no expectations for anything. It was mildly peace and joyful, but about 30 min into that session, a black nimitta started to emerge.
Should mention that I to have the same "cyber Ajhans" as you, and I follow their instructions as good as I can, but I have added a few personal adjustments to their metodes. And before I even sat down the first time, I had been contemplating and "groomed" my mind to this unusual "job" of sitting and doing nothing at all (6 months) .. I've always been told that it's sinful and wrong to just sit and "doing nothing", and that kind of early programming
, done by my parents/grand parents, and the culture I'm born into, felt like a real obstacle for giving myself the permission top sit down and just feel good ..