Unfortunately, you're not the first person to think his existence was the only existence in all existence. Many have existed before you with that same idea. Do some research. The history of solipsism dates back at least to the ancient Greeks. I didn't have to wiki this to know that solipsism is as old as man-kind; but that's where you'll find the basic facts.Christian89 wrote:Also it seems that Buddha was deluded. If you can't answer you're not BIV or a solipsist mind there is no way to answer whether your life wouldn't continue after your death(if you're englightened). I think this simple fact easily disproves the teachings of the Buddha and shows that he was deluded, he just replaced one delusion with another. In his time no one has ever heard of BIV, solipsism, supercomputers and things like that, so that's why he thought he achieved something extraordinary.
As far as supercomputers go; you're going to need to decide on that your self. Obviously, there were no supercomputers; no CGI; and no "The Matrix 1, 2, and 3". In the Buddha's time. And that's exactly why he wasn't able to consider them, right? Therein lies a catch 22. But if you think belief systems like BIV and Matrix World are bad - it can actually get worse.
There are much older ideas through out time that have made men far less happy than the realism of existential philosophy, Rene Descartes "Meditations" - and an idea about computational graphic imagery that grew out of a man made construct: exclusively limited in all historical senses to the 20th and 21st centuries. You should've seen the madness when the very first Nintendo arrived on the scene - circa 1985!
In all sympathy to your depression, I hope you make it to the other side. Try talking to family and peers. Try one of your teachers - some one you trust. It's like editing a work of literature. Two brains in a vat are better than one - yeah?