Bhikkhu Pesala wrote:
I feel this is the wrong approach. Looking for computer based solutions is just something else to do on the computer.
Get away from the flat more often. Just walk out of the door and go to a park or beach to meditate.
Go for a retreat. I see that Dhammaruwan
is giving a retreat next month at the Victoria Buddhist Society. Listen to the Paritta Chanting
he did as a young boy. Its among the best that you can find anywhere.
I heard Dhammaruwan's rendition of the Dhammacakkapavattana Sutta before, it is beautifully melodic.
I appreciate your advice, Bhante. You are right, but I must admit that I'm battling with a kind of reclusiveness at present, and not the healthy type. What I really need is meaningful employment, ie paid,
so I can take better care of my kids etc (when I actually have them, which is only on the weekends, however). But I don't find any employer who is willing to take on a 43 year old, long-term unemployed man who is only formally qualified in music, in this current economic climate of more people seeming to lose their jobs every day. This is why I spend so much time on the darned computer, I don't have enough to do. I would happily take on even a humble and mundane job, but gosh getting knocked back over, and over, and over again...after a while one gets the feeling that employers just aren't interested.
On a positive note, I have just begun a Government-sponsored initiative that helps persons in my situation to establish their own small business. With my musical background, I'm hoping to offer tutoring in music theory,
for which there is more of a demand. (Piano teachers are already very plentiful, they are a dime a dozen.) That is my best chance of getting out of this rut I'm currently in. Plus resuming formal meditation practice wouldn't hurt, either...