acinteyya wrote:I think I'm quite sure how to deal with sakkāyaditthi (personality?) and sílabbataparāmāsa (clinging to rules and rites) but there are moments from time to time where I'm in doubt.
It sounds like you are talking about sotapanna.
more or less... doubts (vicikicchā) disable real practice which shall lead to direct experience of nibbana. So I thougth because I know how to deal with sakkāyaditthi and sílabbataparāmāsa but get into trouble when doubts arise, sotapanna can't be realized or rather experience of nibbana would not be possible until I developed a way to handle doubts.
besides Chris told me about kankhā, the difference between kankhā and vicikichā and different kinds of vicikicchā. now I don't think my doubts are unwholesome vicikicchā, so I'm more relaxed about that now
acinteyya wrote:I don't doubt the dhamma but rather whether I do things right or not.
My understanding is not that one eradicates doubt in order to become sotapanna. Rather one's practice leads to a direct experience of Nibbana and thus one's doubts are eradicated since one sees directly how the practice leads to Nibbana. When this happens one is called sotapanna. That's my understanding, anyway.
That sounds right to me. I'm not sure if practicing with doubts and not letting go or eradicating one's doubts actually allows someone to experience nibbana. I mean in that case I would be trapped in a vicious circle. If doubts were not eradicated -> no experience of nibanna and no experience of nibanna -> no eradication of doubts, which probably leads to more doubts.
But I don't really have a clue... I shouldn't suppose too much
acinteyya wrote:So I'm rather in doubt whether my practice leads in the "right" direction. Does anyone have some advice, please?
I think if one has questions about the practice one can ask a wise friend, a teacher. Or one can try to study the suttas directly.
Unfortunately I don't have a wise friend nor a teacher. The Suttas are helpful but it isn't that easy to "see the real dhamma" for puthujjanas (like me)
. I just assume that my understanding is right. But I have you and this forum
acinteyya wrote:Should I comprise these doubts into contemplation? or suppress? or just further letting go?
I think that until one attains sotapanna one should remember that doubt will inevitably arise from time to time. It's just a normal part of being a puthujjana.
I think if there is no specific question but rather just doubt in those teachings then one should cultivate faith. Contemplate the Buddha or a wise teacher you know and let their admirable qualities inspire faith and counter doubt. I hope this is helpful.
It is. Thank you very much!