SDC wrote: ↑
Mon May 28, 2018 7:50 pm
Is that so unreasonable for me to think so?
I think it is unreasonable to assume that a householder and me in particular would not know what i am talking about and am not qualified to advocate monasticism. There is absolutely no way you can know how prepared i am and if i would handle being ordained or how likely i am to disrobe, that information is simply beyond your scope of knowing.
Furthermore i have answered every point previously;
Why i am not ordained, i have talked about this plenty of times and in that thread of yours in particular;
Trust me in that if i could, id be ordained, not rotting away here. It is causing me a lot of stress not being able to train in a supportive enviroment and having to endure the lay-state as it is. There is 1 monastery in my country and they required me to allign myself, i am fixed in view i cannot do.
I also have debt complicating things so it is not like i am financially independent and not subject to circumstances.
I have also adressed why and to what degree i would advocate monastifying one's life and pursuit of Brahmacariya&Dhammacariya from the perspective of Dhamma and Socio-Economics.
I found it quite offensive the way you brought it up in this thread again, saying basically that i have no idea what i am talking about and have no right to advocate monasticism being neither ordained nor disrobed. I dismissed your initial comment because it is litterally a repeat question.
Not being able to ordain is also something that causes me a lot of grief, so it is just a cheap blow to use it against me in this fashion as i see it.