I imagine that desires for intimacy and sex will return in the future. Think of the not-just-a-few monks who disrobe for that very reason, even after many years of dedicated practice. Don't be too overconfident!Wri wrote:Thank you for your advice lotus flower.
In terms of an update on this thread, I don't feel a need for relationships or sex anymore (although I think I stopped that "need" before this thread) and have seen myself become a much happier and humorous person when I am free from sexual craving. When the craving returns, I can notice exactly what it does to me and how it makes meditation more difficult, as well as making me a more closed off, serious, and tense person. I don't wish to rid myself of sexuality, and it seems like I've done what I need to do: stop thinking I need it to be happy or satisfied. In time, the connections in my brain will accept this and cravings will subside. I think it is only a matter of time. For now, I simply watch as the periods of craving arise and fall and try to enjoy a good laugh at the whole thing.
Thank you for your support everyone
[I don't say that to be snarky but just to give a friendly word of warning that you may already acknowledge without my saying it. But just in case, there it is! ]