I have come back to meditation, trying to think mindfully, and attend my nearby Monastery for lectures, gatherings, meals, and fellowship, after 25 hectic years of raising children. My question regards thinking mindfully. I have discovered that over the years I have developed a quick-judging, either/or, black or white, good or bad way of coming to conclusions, a way of thinking that is completely ridiculous, of course, but perhaps somewhat understandable when children/adolescents/young adults are asking you for immediate decisions or directions or answers. Subtly, nuance, and that precious reality of how a truth can contain contradictions...indeed, sometimes must contain contradictions have not been places I have had time in which to dwell for a long time. (I would try to deepen discussions with my children, but perhaps like most youth, they would be bored and impatient).
Perhaps what I am asking for is to know whether others care to reflect on the necessity of not splitting, how anything whole is complex and made of even elements hostile to each other (hostility bringing dynamism and complexity and mystery). If there are Buddhist texts (original) or modern Buddhist writers who discuss this, I would be so appreciative to know the titles.
I hope I have expressed my idea coherently. I welcome your insights.