I think you'll find your question discussed in this thread:
GusVanSpent wrote:If you didn't find what you were looking for in that discussion. I think I have some insight from personal experience.
I was offered a job when I did not have enough money to pay for rent or food. I was desperate, I had searched everywhere for a job and eventually relented and made the attempt to apply at liquor stores which I personally did not wish to do, as I'd seen the negative side of it prior to finding Buddhism.
I have to say that I had quit drugs, smoking, drinking, I was right on the path of the Buddha, I felt love and compassion for everyone. But once I started working at the liquor store, I knew in my heart that I was helping people destroy themselves. And eventually I became bitter, started treating the customers poorly because I was projecting my distaste in my actions onto others. Eventually I began stealing from my work (simple things like lemonades and chips for lunch, because I felt they had earned the money to buy those things through evil deeds and did not deserve to make what they were making off people), needless to say this led to stealing and drinking alcohol and back again to drugs, which led to lying to cover things up, which led to distancing myself from others, which ultimately took me off the path and even to this day I still have not been able to find my way back.
If you want a personal experience for an answer, let me tell you that choosing to sell alcohol was the worst mistake of my life, given the chance to go back with my mind unfettered as it was, I would sooner starve than accept that job.
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