Of course you may disagree. May I ask you on the base of what you don't agree?
Bhikkhus, that one can engage in sensual pleasures without sensual desires, without perceptions of sensual desire, without thoughts of sensual desire—that is impossible.
There are not only one hundred, Vaccha, or two or three or four or five hundred, but far more men lay followers, my disciples, clothed in whit leading lives of celibacy who, with the destruction of the five lower fetters, will reappear spontaneously [in the Pure Abodes] and there attain final Nibbāna without ever returning from that world.
I had four young wives. I then went to them and said: ‘Sisters, I have undertaken the training rules with celibacy as the fifth. If you want, you can enjoy wealth right here and do merits, or go back to your own family circle, or inform me if you want me to give you over to another man.’ My eldest wife then said to me: ‘Young sir, give me to such and such a man.’ I sent for that man, and with my left hand I took my wife, with my right hand I took the ceremonial vase, and I gave her to that man. But even while giving away my young wife, I don’t recall that any alteration took place in my mind.
Of the five lower fetters taught by the Blessed One, I don’t see any that I haven’t abandoned.
There are these ten fetters. Which ten? Five lower fetters & five higher fetters. And which are the five lower fetters? Self-identity views, uncertainty, grasping at precepts & practices, sensual desire, & ill will. These are the five lower fetters. And which are the five higher fetters? Passion for form, passion for what is formless, conceit, restlessness, & ignorance. These are the five higher fetters. And these are the ten fetters.
Your experiences are real, your conceptualisation around your experiences is wrong.
Remember, think, think again, you are using Buddhist terminology/concepts which people long time before you even have been born invented and defined. Your present thoughts speech and actions don't fit the predefined/characteristic thoughts speech actions of even an anagami not to speak of an arahant. Means you are using the wrong conventions/concepts for your experiences.
On top of that you are difficult to teach/ to correct, a quality which signals immaturity, not wisdom, a quality which the Buddha and the wise blamed.
What is the base of your conviction that you use the Buddhist terminology/concepts in the right way?
Basically, your actions and behaviour, lack of faith in the Buddha etc do not even fit the criteria of a sotapanna. Research yourself, please do your homework before responding further with unfounded uneducated nonsense.