I see my instructions were not clear. I am not trying to show about moment awareness.....it would have been better if I had left "the moment" out of the post. Here is what I was trying for:
In your original post you talk about the mind being sometimes focused and sometimes wandering and this seems to have brought up the idea of what is controlling the mind. One way to learn about this is to read stuff and discuss it with people like here on the forum. Another way is to calm the mind and try to actually observe the mind changing from being focused to wandering. So, my idea was that if I gave you a simple task (reading a word or two written backwards) then you would need to intentionally focus your mind a bit to accomplish the task and upon successfully deciphering the word your mind would develop some kind of mental image or taste, or smell, or etc. and your mind would do this WITHOUT you intentionally focusing it or directing it in any way. In this way your mind would change from one mode of direction into another mode.....it would change from being analytical to being imaginative perhaps....or change from being focused to wandering perhaps. I am not trying to give a definition of any of the minds activities.....I am trying to create a situation which would make it easier to actually be aware of what the mind is doing so that you could directly experience your own mental changes. It is difficult to see these changes and calming the mind as much as possible will help in detecting the change. So, what I'm trying for is direct experience of mental qualities.
Thanks for elaborating.
The problem with this task is:
As long as i'm mindful of the original instruction of just watching and cognize the word
, the mind will follow the instruction and restrain any imaginative process, therefore thoughts about its image, sounds and character does not arise.
The changing process of mental experience as you described can only be recognized by recalling the passing moment which awareness( of the ongoing process) seems to slack somewhere in between.
This is my reason why i can't conform into the bold phrase.
In your original post you talk about the mind being sometimes focused and sometimes wandering and this seems to have brought up the idea of what is controlling the mind.
As how i see it, the wandering mind is cause by the absent of awareness( of its process) and my intention of this thread is to know better about what is directing/restraining the choice and determination at the moment we are mindful of our own thoughts.