Greetings from east Tennessee
Posted: Sun May 20, 2012 1:25 am
My name is Dennis.I'm am newly practicing Buddhist. Tho I am terrible at it I feel as tho I have been Buddhist all my life.It was fortunate for me that I discover buddha as a child. Tho I did not know his name the teachings of baddha brought peace to a child who was in a bad place. For the wisdom I am most GRATEFUL.With out it I may have been lost to insanity. But I have discovered that tho I may have escaped my troubles as a child I am still very much dependent on the wisdom in buddha. I tried really hard for many years to practice the religion of my father. It only brought misery to my life. Finally reaching my breaking point with that religion I put it away. I thought back to the most inner peaceful time of my life to a time when i should not have been peaceful because i was in a harsh environment. I can plainly remember opening a red hard back book named the Wisdom of Confucius. I was a child in a bad place. i could not even keep a toy. But this book became my most prized possion . I hid it and would sneak it out at night or at any other opportunity to read it. But one day it was discovered and I have never seen the book again. Fortunate not long after i was rescued from the situation. I returned to a seemly normal life but i have never forgot that book. And once finally ridding myself of that religion as an adult and remembering the book I began to search for my old friend again and in doing so i found a treasure of knowledge and wisdom, more than my mind can hold.I learn that the thing I was looking for was buddha because he was the source of what i was reading. Sadly I have never found that book again tho it means very much to me. But the good thing is i have found where the wisdom in that book came from and most importantly I found who and what i am.I am ignorant of these different kinds of buddism and i think it is well for me to allow it come out naturally and not cling to one or the other till such time as it reviled to me what path i should take if indeed i am to choose one. But I am definitely sure buddha is the only way to peace for me. I want to learn more about what it means to be buddist but in the region where i live books and resources on buddha are all most non-existent. I have no other choice than to pursue buddha, without it I am not a good person and my life becomes so miserable I cant stand it. But this is my path and as long as i can stay on it i am happy, nothing else will do. So i will end this with an "hi my names is dennis and tho i am not a good one or a really smart one i am a buddist. Please forgive my grammar I have not got a good education but i can read and think well.And if any should happen upon my book I would be most grateful to know. It is more valuable to me than any price that may be placed on it.I Very much look forward to learning here and would thank all of you for having me.May we all find the peace within and have the wisdom to dwell there often. 
