I love you. We love you.
Absolutely do not take your life. There are individuals who have been just as depressed, if not more, who have overcome their pain by practicing the Buddha's teachings. He calls the Noble Eightfold Path the path to the ending of suffering for a reason. People who practiced and became fully enlightened include:
1.) A person who lost her son and was so distraught that she clung to his dead corpse and walked from city to city
2.) A person who lost her family and became so deranged that she walked around completely naked, wailing in madness
3.) A person who had become a forest-dwelling serial killer who was hated by the local people
4.) A person who was wrongfully accused and sentenced of a crime and impaled on a stake (he became enlightened while on the very stake itself)
These people, as well as many others, were in deep, dark places before they found the Buddha and his teachings. You're this close to realizing the fruits of the greatest teachings that this world has to offer, so don't throw it away just yet. This is the path that solves all problems. Just keep practicing and let time take its course.
I've felt great misery during my time with the practice, and by keeping up the practice, I've been able to deal with problems that have arisen, and have become a much stronger individual than ever before. I can personally attest to the capacity for happiness that it can bring. There are hundreds, thousands, of others who have been in similar distress who have gotten up and pulled themselves up from their lowest points with the Buddha's instruction. I've pulled myself up from rock bottom before, and trust me, life gets a lot better when you do.
Don't give up just yet. Your post is a cry for help, and we hear you, friend. We've got your back. Don't quit just yet. I love you and I wish you the best. We love you and we wish you the best.
If you have any questions, feel free to reply or pm me or any of the other members here. We care about you and we will help you put an end to suffering, friend.
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