Thank you very much, Bhante Pesala!
It is good for me to learn in this way.
I have tried in some crooked way to achieve good by doing wrong. I have very crooked ideas.
And sometimes it seems I just want to push them out in crazy ways and see what happens.
It seems for me somehow sometimes a way of learning, although I must see again and again, that it is not at all in line with Dhamma. I hope it will not happen again.
It is me, of course, who acted in inconsiderate ways... I know. I really know.
I am very ashamed of my own doing.
Thank you for acting very considerately, although I have been so shameless.
Because having received helpful admonishment I feel very much relief and my perceptions can become more sane.
Thank you very much really for helping me out, and being so patient.