Aloka wrote:I think the purpose of practice, isn't to block out thoughts, but to understand them and gently let them go again if they're negative - and to maintain awareness, clarity and a relaxed and peaceful mind. Some additional metta practice can help with the development of this relaxation and tranquilty.
We still need some kind of thinking process to accomplish everyday tasks however, and to be kind and considerate towards other sentient beings with whom we share our planet. A more peaceful mind helps one to be more successful in dealing with situations in general, as they arise.
Agreed. It appears to me that concern to the world is a distracting thought and i had been responding to it by excluding the metta practice all along. Although restlessness is overcome, compassion isn't there.
I tried the metta instruction by A Jayasaro and B Thanissaro, it is still hard for me to not see the aggregates when imagine the form of cute puppy or children or even loved ones. Besides that, the intention of generating meta-karuna to lovely and cute forms tend to become lost in sensual affection most of the time. But when mindfulness is regained, the reflection of not-self aggregates is back to stop me from wishing. So i was like going back and forth.
The reflection of not-self aggregates seems to tail-gate my mindfulness, i don't even feel necessary to wish myself good luck. There's also a deep impression in my thought that the more i wish the more i'm not content. How to deal with this?