When we being life as a young infant, we come in with no conscious conceptions about reality, thus 'god' does not apply at this age. Gradually, some of us are 'educated' regarding whatever our prevailing culture regards as the 'summum bonum' or great Spirit (or vengeful sky-god, etc).
As a young adult, I tried to use certain mainstream Paths to attain this 'force' or 'spirit' I had seemed to touch upon in my youth, with mixed and inconsistent results.
But now? I'm becoming a godless old wretch. I don't believe in much at all anymore...(still holding out that rebirth according to kamma might be true, though, just in case...you never know).
Any other godless folks out there? I mean, really-and-truly godless, blinded as if on the road to Damascus, except that the light spoke to one and said, "guess what? THERE IS NO GOD!"
with much metta,
a godless old wretch.
*An editorial postscript: re-reading this post of mine from a few weeks back, I realize there is a tone of bitterness in it. I've kind of 'moved on' from that mood of subtle disappointment. Now, I don't know what to say about the issue of god, or what god is even supposed to be. I think if asked now, the best answer might just be silence.
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on Mon Oct 01, 2012 4:22 am, edited 2 times in total.
Then the Blessed One, picking up a tiny bit of dust with the tip of his fingernail, said to the monk, "There isn't even this much form...feeling...
perception...fabrications...consciousness that is constant, lasting, eternal, not subject to change, that will stay just as it is as long as eternity."