Jay1 wrote:I am personally most interested in this:
"Growing distaste for speaking; even to say a word. Also disinclination to write or preach. "
Hi Jay. The website you linked to in the OP has little to do with the Buddha's teaching, and to me looks like some kind of quasi-hindu or neo-hindu group.
Nevertheless, right speech is an important part of the Noble eightfold path which includes abandoning idle talk. Preaching, as I understand it, is forbidden (or proselytising rather), unless invited to do so, for members of the monastic sangha. The desire to constantly preach/proselytise can be based on unwholesome states of mind such as view-clinging and ego, and it is better to help others by being a good example in action. As for writing, many great teachers have written extensively, so I don't think it is necessarily a problem.
Meditation is an important part of the path, and for me personally much has come from (trying to) keep pure sila, seeing the difference between wholesome and unwholesome, an intellectual understanding of the Buddha's teachings, and the higher pleasure and dispassion from meditation - I feel more fulfilled, calmer, and have a general sense of well-being. It has helped me over come some serious problems in my life and I am incredibly grateful.
"If beings knew, as I know, the results of giving & sharing, they would not eat without having given, nor would the stain of miserliness overcome their minds. Even if it were their last bite, their last mouthful, they would not eat without having shared."