Hi, i have just joined and thought i would introduce myself
My name is Rob and i live in the UK. Im 37 and have had a troubled history mainly involving drink and drug abuse. Ive been serious addiction free now for nearly 3 years since i quit drinking though and finally managed to quit cannabis 3 months ago and i also quit tobacco at the same time so for the first time in many many years i am truly myself.
Ive been meditating for around 18 months but only the past 6 months or so have i taken it seriously, im also doing a lot of yoga these past 3 months or so and feel great for it.
I have always had a very very over active mind, my body has always been lazy but my mind has always more than made up for that. I still have problems with anxiety but after trying all sorts of medication both legal and illegal i have been drawn to Buddhism. I like to listen to talks by Ajahn Brahm and Thanissaro Bhikkhu, they make a lot of sense to me and i feel drawn to the ideas of Buddhism more so than i ever was drugs or drink. I just feel it in my bones that it is right for me and really want to dedicate myself to the path.
I have learned a few things off my own back but feel its time now to join a community of like minded people which i feel can only help me to get further along the path. I am still a beginner and im not looking for a quick fix, i want to put the work in and hopefully start to finally lead a peaceful life. I tend to be the sort of person who doesn't really sweat the big stuff in life but panic like mad about stupid silly things, this is what i want to change. I want to be at peace with myself and others and im hoping with work, time and the valuable advice im hoping to find on this forum i can at some point achieve my goal.
Sorry for the essay and thanks for having me