I am merely describing my experience. I feel that words and definitions do not get at the core.


It is apparently a known occurence among meditators:

If "deep uncertainty" indicates a sense of lack then it may be investigated how this conforms to what is called "a mind state I can only describe as Anatta". But it is really nothing that can be discussed ... :sage: I don't know if there is a misunderstanding here. The best desc...

"No volitional acts" does not necessarily mean that he is not acting from the perspective of another observer. I am experiencing a mind state I can only describe as Anatta. There is no entity that "wills" except for the interplay of desires. All kinds of ideas may be projected o...

Is apathy the natural result of the cessation of craving? I read somewhere that once the Arahant achieves enlightenment, the only mental formations that arise are products from previous volitional acts or caused by biological necessity, no "spontaneous" volitional acts are formed. Is this ...

Thanks for asking!

The emptiness of mind is very apparent in this state, its almost as if my mind has expanded infinitely and phenomenon come into being and cease on their own, similar to the physical laws that govern space-time.

Yes, the diagnosis oscillates between Schizo-affective Disorder and Bipolar II Disorder. After trying different medications, the Bipolar mood stabilizers have been the most effective.

I have been experiencing Depersonalization Disorder for the last 3 years along with other psychological conditions such as Anhedonia, Depression... The most disturbing of these symptoms is the experience of behaving against my will. My thoughts, feelings, actions work in a completely deterministic f...